I have found myself asking a lot of questions lately. Specifically the age old question, "Why do bad things happen to good people?" It was pointed out to me, by my dear Tonya, maybe seemingly bad things happen, to get us thinking, and moving. I can't agree more. I believe in karma, I believe in the universe, I believe that what ever I put out there will come back to me. Yesterday, on the way to beach, I thought, I must have been a terrible person in my past life based on all these terrible, hateful people recently muddying the waters of my life. Which is what lead to Tonya's statement. I find now, more than ever, it's important to concentrate on positive things in my life. The ugly-hearted people, who will hopefully never grace me with there presence again, are sorry souls, searching for some sort of meaning and love in there life. I am much better off without them in my life. I am much better off without their nasty, hateful, demeaning and thoughtless actions.
I am so grateful for everything I have and everything that I am, and I wouldn't change myself for anything. I am eternally blessed to a gifted artist with a supportive and healthy group of peers. My family and friends support me and my work (even if they don't always understand it). It's time for me to start remembering who I am, and keeping closer tabs on myself. It's time for me to spend four hours in my studio instead of aiding in America's obesity crisis. It's time for me to make, and do, and write, and think, and paint!! No more time to be lazy. No more time to waste. If i keep these things in perspective, I will rise up and meet my goals.